“So long self … “

If we’re fortunate, if we commit ourselves, if we give in and walk with abandon, I think there’s something incredible that happens on this walk with Christ. When I first began writing, it was out of a need to express myself, out of a deep-seated desire to press into Him, to process my develpoment, to try and keep up with all of the internal changes that were flooding through my life like some sort of tidal wave … I loved how intimately our communication and relationship developed, how sweet our time together smelled, and how gently He moved me into awareness and purpose. I have started to lean how to say “So long self …”

These days, I’m off and running in a direction that I knew was coming more than six years ago. I’m trying to keep a steady, yet faithful pace to the direction He’s called me to go, and as I try and keep up with our Lord, I am ever-amazed at what He has entrusted me with.

For those of you who don’t know me and what I’ve been up for the last year, Abeni (www.abenionline.org) has officially launched In my desire to listen to God and pursue the life I knew He was calling me to, a couple of friends and I decided to follow our passion for those in the SoCal sex industry and start loving those beautiful women working as online escorts, porn starts, and in our local strip clubs.

It has been the most incredible journey so far in this whirlwind seven months. It has been indescribably filling and freeing to my soul. We have met some of the most wonderful, talented, intelligent, beautiful, funny girls in our visits to our local strip clubs. I am learning to live beyond comfort and a life that’s easily explained to others, but, once again, I am learning to say “So long self … “

So, ultimately, my life is so jam packed with things on the to-do list, and although I rarely have a chance to sit and write anymore, I am finding this strange balance that could only come from my time with and pursuit of Jesus. I know that for every season under the sun, He has a purpose. I’d love to keep you up to date with what God and  Abeni are doing. Visit the Abeni website (www.abenionline.org) , check it out, then I challenge you to spend some time with God and begin pursuing the call behind the small, still Voice that’s been calling you for so long … I promise, you won’t be sorry

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